I Made It!

I made it through last week – pretty much intact – and only a little worse for the wear. My Mom gave me a most unusual and amazing compliment on Friday night. She came to the first performance of our musical – and she said to me, “If I had been at the performance last year, and had not seen you at all during the year, and came to the performance tonight – I would not have recognized you.” My first thought was, “That’s my Mama – how could she not recognize me???” But then, I thought about what she was saying. I am a completely different person than I was this time last year. Not just in physical appearance – which has changed dramatically – but also in demeanor. I am not experiencing the bone-weary fatigue I have had in the past. I have tons more energy – more than I ever remember having. Every fiber of my body doesn’t ache like it used to. And perhaps most importantly, I am not miserable all the way to the depth of my soul. My eyes sparkle, and I honestly like myself. That is a LOT of change in a year. So, when my own mother says she wouldn’t recognize me – that is saying something. If I’m truthful, I have to admit that I probably wouldn’t recognize myself, if I hadn’t been taking this journey every step along the way.

Saturday, I finished all my Christmas shopping. One of my stops was Costco. While I was there, I found a cute little sweater that I liked – and I bought it – nothing plus size, just a regular sweater – like a regular person. It was so nice! I really enjoy being able to find something just in any store.

Our musical went very well this weekend – as did all of the other activities. However, my body protested a little. Partially, I’m sure, because I tried not doing lasix every day (possibly not the smartest thing – when there is so much else going on) and partially because I did eat some salty things that I shouldn’t have (like the birthday party lunch that was catered by Varsity – I don’t think they have ANYTHING for a low sodium diet!) Anyway, my weight was up 6.2 pounds by yesterday – but fortunately, down today by 4.2 pounds. I need to play this a little smarter, I think.