Euphoria

There is a certain euphoria to seeing the rapid weight loss after surgery - a high that keeps motivating you to keep at it.  But realistically - how long will this last?  I figure as long as I'm on soft foods, it shouldn't be too bad...however, can I really do this long term?

For now, anyway, it isn't a problem.  Food holds no interest for me.  I make myself eat.  I'm really trying to eat all of the protein that I should - knowing that it is necessary to maintain muscle.  But beyond that - not even the faintest desire.  And things I once craved - especially chocolate - I cannot even think about...I NEVER thought I would say that.

Nearly everyone I see is commenting on the weight loss now.  And while the compliments are nice - really nice - I still think that most people don't get what this is all about.  I have no desire to be beautiful by society's standards...at best, that is a fleeting achievement, even if it happens.  The most important thing is feeling good - and I have to say, I see that happening.

Saturday night - I had my first social interaction with food - a wedding and reception.  It was not as difficult as I anticipated, partially because we sat with good friends - with whom I did not have to "defend" my food choices and amounts.  I was really nervous about it beforehand, and even thought about not going.  But I know that I cannot isolate myself forever, and it was a good place to begin.