OK – maybe not sick enough to whine about it – but definitely not feeling up to my usual self. What started as a scratchy throat yesterday morning turned into a definite sore throat by yesterday afternoon. Today it hurts to swallow, period. So far, all I have managed are hot liquids. I did gargle with warm salt water this morning, but it didn’t do much. I’m not running a fever, which is good news, but this just isn’t any fun at all.
In my past, I have always used not feeling well as a license to eat whatever I wanted. This time, I’m not doing that. Of course, I want to AVOID swallowing as much as I can, but on a deeper level – I am totally aware that eating what I want will not make me feel better. It will make me feel worse. And then I have all of the emotional garbage on top of the sore throat. I’m doing my best to stay hydrated, and for today, that’s all I really am going to do. I am miles away from where I started this journey. This is real progress.
When I was growing up, I had to be really sick to stay home from school. And on those occasions when I DID stay home, lunch was ALWAYS a cup of bouillon and dry soda crackers. For some people, that might not be a terrible thing, but I dislike soup in general, and bouillon in particular. Knowing what would be served for lunch probably kept me from faking illness – because I had to be really sick to even think about eating bouillon. My only choice in the matter was whether I wanted beef or chicken bouillon. To this day, I will not even have bouillon in my house. My tastes have matured though – I enjoy the occasional cup of soup – even more so if it is homemade.
I’ll try not to whine too much today – and I hope to be feeling better tomorrow!
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