Happy New Year!

Where did 2010 go??? Somehow, when I wasn’t looking – the year just flew by. And here we are, turning a new page on the calendar – packing up the old, getting ready for the new…

Traditionally, this is the time of year when people make resolutions. I have always shied away from doing that, because I am so very bad at keeping resolutions. I almost always break the resolution before the first day is out. That makes me feel guilty – and then I have always tried to eat away the guilty feelings – and since eating was usually what the resolution was about in the first place, it was just a vicious cycle. There is absolutely NO WAY to feel good when you are trapped in that cycle. And that is the problem with diets – whether they are the traditional New Year’s Resolution Diet – or any one of the thousands of other diets – Atkins, diabetic, Jenny Craig, Nutrisystem…all of them are designed as a TEMPORARY fix – not a lifestyle change. Realistically, everyone will go off the diets – because the diets are not meant to sustain long term. And going off the diet generally triggers the guilt…

Yesterday at church, someone said to me, “You just keep getting prettier and prettier.” That made me pause – I have never been the “pretty” one. I’m not even sure that I have ever wanted to be the “pretty” one. I certainly don’t think of myself that way – and while it was really nice for him to say it – in my head, I pretty much chalked it up to flattery from one of my little old men. I love him for saying it, but I’m fully aware that it is probably just him being nice. And yet…and yet, in my heart of hearts, I think I want someone to think of me as pretty. No worries – I’m not going out to enter any beauty pageants. I’m not going to be getting headshots to take to a modeling agency. But if someone tells me I’m pretty – I’m not going to argue.

Happy New Year to everyone!