It's Thursday...

We had an interesting discussion this morning on the van pool ride into work - about frozen cookie dough. As others were talking, I realized that I have not one, but two, tubs of frozen cookie dough - something that I have purchased to support someone's school or band or team. This is significant for a couple of reasons. First, it has been in there for several months. I'm not worried about it going bad while it's frozen, but in my fat life - I would not have left it in the freezer for any length of time. It would have been in the refrigerator - and I would have made up the cookies, or even better, I would have eaten the raw cookie dough. I know, I know, in today's world that is not a good thing - but I LOVE raw cookie dough. (As I child, I frequently told my mother that I would rather have a big bowl of her chocolate chip cookie dough with a candle in it than a birthday cake - unless she made one of her famous stack cakes.) Second, until the conversation this morning, I had forgetten that I even had the cookie dough. And when I realized I DO have it, there was no desire to do anything with it. I made a mental note to use it for my annual open house in December, but beyond that - not a single thought.

I think I can finally say that the days are gone where I binged. It is a little surprising, and a lot horrifying, to think of the things I have eaten at those times when I was just desperate to put something - ANYTHING - in my mouth. I have opened cans of beans or chili - and eaten them straight out of the can. Cake mixes, muffin mixes, brownie mixes - straight out of the box. It did not matter at all how bad it was for me - in fact, sometimes it seemed I was trying to put in the worst possible thing for me.

A friend left some chocolate-flavored "Popsters" at our house - tiny, bite-sized Poptarts, in 100 calorie packages. I spend so little time in the pantry now, that I didn't know they were there. When I finally did see them, I thought I would try it. I didn't even eat half of the package. They tasted fine - but held no real interest for me.