On the way to work this morning – I noticed the waning crescent moon. It wasn’t just the crescent – you could also see the shape of the full moon. It was a beautiful picture. The thing I first noticed was how bright the crescent was – but it was so cool to see the crescent as part of the whole.
It occurred to me that this is a perfect illustration for me on several levels. First of all, the weight loss is truly just part of the whole picture for me. I have said before that I love the attention I have been getting – I’m glad that people think I look good. But that is not why I started this journey. For me, that is just a small part of the picture. Granted, it is the part that is most visible – and very obviously the part that most people comment on. But the biggest reason for this journey is to improve my health – and that is happening.
Second, the moon this morning made me think of the difficulties in seeing my body as it is RIGHT NOW. When I look in the mirror, I still see the old picture. Despite all of the changes, I’m still the fat girl. Someone suggested that I blow up a picture of the old me to life size, then cut around that picture, and cut two inches to the inside, creating a two inch border (remember, this is life size.) Then I should tape this to a full length mirror, and stand in front of it, and see where I am NOW. OK – that’s pretty complicated, but I do see the point. The only thing I have to compare to is the picture in my head, and that picture is no longer accurate. It does give me something to think about, though.
Finally, even though the moon is constantly changing its phase and its position, it has been with us since very nearly the beginning of time.
“God made two great lights—the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars. God set them in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth, to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the fourth day.” (Genesis 1:16-19, NIV)
This struggle with my weight has been part of my life ever since I can remember, and that isn’t going to change. I AM making better choices now, and my PLAN is to continue that into the future. But I will still have to make the choices. I will still have to decide what I will and will not eat. I will still have to read labels, and know what my nutrition needs are.
As a child, my Mom taught me this little poem: “I see the Moon, the Moon sees me. God bless the Moon, and God bless me.” God has blessed me abundantly and richly. Through this journey, one of my greatest blessings is the friends and family who have been such a support! A GREAT BIG THANKS to all of you!!!
(As a side note – I weighed this morning exactly what my husband does. I’ll take it!)
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