New Decisions

“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.” ~ Albert Einstein

This quote makes me smile – and yet, I have to acknowledge the truth in this statement. I have been openly frustrated about the plateau I am on – but I have NOT changed anything in my eating habits that will effectively change the results. If I don’t change something, then I will most likely STAY on this plateau. Compared to where I have been, it’s not so bad, but I really and truly do not want to poop out on this race just as the finish line looms ahead. I have worked too hard, and too many people have invested too much for me to give up.

It’s not that I’m eating bad things – or too much. I still have difficulty eating more than a very small amount. But I have been a little careless in my bite, lick, and taste philosophy. One bite might become two, one lick might become several, and one taste might not be enough. I added high fiber oatmeal to my diet every day, but did not compensate for that by cutting back or cutting out something else. I have increased my carbohydrates somewhat. Work has been extremely busy, and I have not been walking consistently. Small things, to be sure, but they all add up in the course of the day. When I reach goal, I think maintaining will be fairly simple. I can just do what I am doing now. But I’m not at goal yet, so I need to be even more careful.

Worst for me is nights when Dave is working. When he is there, I might not even go into the kitchen. But when he’s not there, I wander restlessly – and sometimes still find myself mindlessly putting something into my mouth. I decided yesterday that my current plan of action is not working, and last night I was particularly cautious about what I ate. The good news is that my weight was down a little this morning. It remains to be seen if I am making enough changes to make a difference. By stating it here, and making myself accountable, I think it is much more likely to happen.

No one has ever forced the food into my mouth. That choice has always been mine, and mine alone. The choice is still mine – and I am choosing to continue this journey. Thanks to everyone who has walked with me!