A miscommunication. A prescription left sitting at the pharmacy, instead of in my bag of pills. A forced trial of the doctor’s way, instead of my way. And I gained three pounds this morning. Sigh.
Now, logically, I can say that this is just fluid gain, resulting from not taking the lasix last night. Rationally, I can say that as soon as I am able to take the lasix again, I will lose those three pounds and possibly a little more. Reasonably, I can say that this is, at best, a temporary and reversible setback. Sensibly, I can make note of the fact that this weight gain represents only 1.51% of the weight I have dumped. But you know what? I gained the weight in a very emotional connection to food. I have disposed of that weight involving the same emotions. I find it extremely difficult to be logical, rational, reasonable or sensible about gaining ANY of this weight back.
Having said that, I have to say that I recently said this to a friend who is going through some difficult times:
“There are many things you absolutely cannot change. But the one thing you can ALWAYS change is yourself. And that is one of the hardest things in the world to do. Hard? Definitely! Effective? I can’t change the circumstance, but I can change me. Worth it? ABSOLUTELY. Maybe you can find one thing today - and say, ‘I cannot change this circumstance, this person, this thing that overwhelms me. But just for today, I refuse to let it control my thoughts, my actions, my words, or my attitude.’ And then when you find yourself gravitating to just that one problem - just for today - pray hard - reach out and ask friends to pray - talk to me about it. See if you can change yourself in response to that problem - and if a whole day seems too long, then maybe just for a few minutes. The point is to start somewhere. Baby steps are perfect - but nothing will happen if you don't even take a baby step.”
OUCH!!! Sounds like I really need to take my own advice. So, for today, I am NOT going to dwell on those three pounds. When I start thinking about them, I’m going to reach out to my friends to get a better perspective. (That’s fair warning – I might be calling on YOU!) I will choose, instead, to think about a friend who unexpectedly sent me a bag of clothes – filled with dresses and skirts – the part of my wardrobe that has been mostly neglected (mainly because most of my friends/family who are giving me clothes don’t wear that many dresses or skirts). Today I have on a beautiful black lace skirt, and a cropped red sweater with ruffles along the hem and neckline. Today, I feel very feminine, and dare I say it, beautiful, despite the thing that I am NOT going to dwell on! I will report tomorrow how I’ve done keeping that resolution, and practicing what I preach.
“Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.” (Philippians 4:8-9, NIV.)
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